We are not the one who decides

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Story 1
The final week had been over since Wednesday. And I've been waiting for the results day to day. I checked the CAESAR and Blackboard every single day, for I was really nervous and scared for not getting good grades.
Day after day.. I can't even do anything properly as I keep checking the grades. Seriously, the situation was even worse than the time I got my SPM results! Probably the last quarter's emotion was still in my mind, that it's hard for me to get another bad results.

I wasted many days not doing what I'm supposed to do. But anyway, it turned out not so bad. I was expecting worse coz the percentages at the Blackboard doesn't promise any A or even B. (Mind me, I have to get above 3.0 to graduate). Alhamdulillah tsummal hamdulillah, I can't say anything more. The curves were low enough - you can even get an A by getting 70s.

So nice isn't it? But the point is, at some level, you will realize that you can't do anything except to put your full 100% trust in Allah.


Story 2
Ah, I almost forgot what I wanted to put here.

hoping for the flowers to come soon! ;)

This week is my Spring break. And usually I will have a trip going either half or full time of the break. But it seems this year I don't.

Last month, I planned so excitedly to go to Kentucky to visit a friend of mine. We planned so much already and I've even reserved a car. But it had to be canceled - due to its over-budget that I can't afford alone.

And then I planned to go to Michigan, as well as other part of Illinois. Both. But yes, Allah decided for me - it didn't happen as planned. I had to choose - for the benefit of me and others. So much that I hate making decisions, I chose one. And going there tomorrow inshaAllah.

Though I've been kind of frustrated on the canceled KY's trip, I guess He had given me hints why I can't go there.

I used to join trips that is not so 'good', and till now I don't feel good about it.
I used to go anywhere I like without concerning too much about money, and now I have to learn to manage it very well.

All in all, I do it through my best judgment under the trust of Allah and He decides whether it becomes reality or not.

For He knows the best! =)

ps: and until know I'm still figuring out much more hikmahs why I'm here.